pfft.

woke up in a crappy mood. and it continues.

I'm just bitchy today. thinking about how annoying work is, how much i need to refocus things. debating on what i should do next. wondering if i will have a job in a year. and to top it all off, I get constant reminders of how far i've walked down this road. I want to be happy. you know, really happy. like how i remember.

i hate the way i make myself feel sometimes. and and i know what it is, but knowing it doesnt make it better.



*deep breath*


okay.

today is friday. the day after valentines day. stupid holiday. went out to the vfest stuff and ended up having a few drinks and fun with some friends.

--the disconnect continues

i really dont have anything to talk about. I'm kinda forcing this because i dont really want to talk about what i really want to talk about. and how much i would give to not feel like this.



mark me down for one week of shitty days. Let the optimists dine on broken hearts.