I got a lot on my mind

Thoughts sometimes hang in your head. And it takes a lot to understand
why they are there. For me the past few weeks have been filled with
Massive highs and crushing lows if I can borrow a line.

And they started and ended with ruth. Not that that matters a whole lot
in the scheme of things. But it definitely is the catylist for my
moods. If I realized why I was feeling that way it would have made more
sense. But knowing that now doesn't make it clearer for my current
mood.

Cryptic, yes.

Anyway, I find myself sitting at a bar drinking. not the best of ideas,
but I'm finding solice in the bottom of the glass.

And when the night is over I can drown this in work, which will be
anything but consoling. Numbing of the senses. The ignoring of the
thoughts.

One day I'll look back and wonder why these two weeks even matter, but
for now it's the only thing that fills my head.

Maybe the next beer will... nah. It won't.