Happiness

Things happen in this life that sometimes that are hard to explain. And
sometimes thing happen that are easy to explain.

In short I've met someone.

To take this a step further, I've met someone that has changed my
outlook on life.

Her name is ruth.

To put into words the way I feel is easy and difficult at the same time.
A part of me wants this to be difficult, it would make this easier to
understand or grasp. But in all honesty, this has been the easiest thing
that has ever come into my life in recent memory.

I finally found somweone that I can talk to and be with that is so
diffrent from me. But at the same time she makes me feel right. She
makes everything right.

Tonight I was at johnathan's party, talking with many diffrent people.
Some oi've met before and some I haven't. But the whole time I could
think of nothing but ruth. And the waty she makes me feel when I'm with
her.

Now, I'm sitting outside of maude's waiting for her to finish up some
work. And as the cold gainesville night creeps in, my soul is warmed in
the thought of her, at any moment , walking out that door.

I ramble because I feel fear.

I think to myself how much I don't want to make a mistake. Not that I
could. I honestly think she feels the same about me. Which makes me
happier than I think I've been. Ever.

And in a few moments, that door will open, and she'll walk out, hold my
hand and make this chilly gainesville night melt with the heat of a
thousand burning suns.

Until then, I'll wait on this bench, watching that door.