Fest and ramblings

Well i had a great weekend at the fest. good bands, good friends, good times.

This is one of those things that just seems to happen at the right time. Getting people out and seeing music in this town has been a passion of mine (duh) and i'm glad that the fest could bring out more people than i ever could. Kinda makes me fell a little humbled and insignificant. kinda like this whole thing could carry on without me.

Life is funny like that

i'm not going to make it a habit of talking about my personal life on this blog. at least nothing that involves other people. Now with that said i need to talk about me and my situation...

I'm falling back into that lack of desire thing. I'm pushing people away faster than ever. I dont know why. I probably need to get my head on straight and figure out some goals. Sort term anyways... what i want to accomplish in the next few months. Because this living day to day, week to week thing has been wearing thin.

Shopping

something that i never do is shop. I actually try to make it a point not to go to the store and buy things. Spending money on actual "permanent" things has never really been my strong suit.

anyways, i went to the mall and got some new shoes and jeans. this might not seem like a big deal, but considering that i have had the same shoes for over 2 years... yeah, i need some. And jeans.. geesh... I'm still wearing my "fat" clothes. I dropped from a snug (and i do mean snug) 40 to a comfortable 36... i actually had a pair of 34s on that i was told showed of my ass nicely.

blech

I'm getting that funny feeling again. god i hope that i'm not going to be in a shitty mood for thursday. I just want this to go well. I'll be under the microscope, so i really do need to behave. in all aspects of that term.

I dont remember ever writing this type of personal stuff before... maybe this is good. i may need an outlet for this. and baring my thoughts for the universe to see might be just what i need.