The trials and existence of the one are nothing when compared with an inifinite Other.
The News from Dimension Rusty page has been temporarily disabled while I decide its fate. I have decided that my responsibility to other people is more important than my desire for openness. I have absolutely no problem living my own life out in the eyes of society, but my friends never signed a contract giving me that power of their lives. There is no way that I can be totally open about my own life without delving into the lives of those around me. I exist in the eyes of and face-to-face meeting with the Other. (For a more complete understanding of this theory, feel free to consult Emmanuel Levinas' "Time and the Other". It is most easily available in The Levinas Reader, assembled by Sean Hand.)
The Update Page has already caused one of my best friends to hurt more than she deserves. Furthermore, I see in the Update Page a terrible potential to mess up one of the best things in my life right now. I don't want to even risk it. Does this mean you'll never see it again? Probably not. At least I don't think that's what this is. I just need some time to think right now without worrying that I'll mistakenly say more than I should on my web page. A lot of times I don't think; I feel. And that can be dangerous.
I know a lot of you kept up with the update page on a daily basis. I can't tell you how much that has meant to me. Feel free to e-mail. I can't promise I'll respond as quickly as you would like, but I'll certainly try. I will continue to the process of archiving the past updates and organizing them into a more friendly and manageable format. Once I finish archiving them, I'll post the old entries for your perusal. In the meantime, you can look at some of the other stuff on my web site to get a better idea of who I am, the person I am deep down in my soul.
And, no, this has absolutely nothing to do with those R.U.S.T.Y. signs in the stairwell.
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